Friday, August 8, 2008

8.8.08

Today is great. It started for me around noon. Last night I stayed up until 4:45 with my roommate Joe, reminiscing on the past year. This year has been nuts. SO freaking crazy. Anyway, that has nothing to do with what I'm about to type. I'm just gonna type out today's page of 'Utmost for His Highest' because it was incredible today.. okay? okay.

"If the Son of God is born into my mortal flesh, is HIs holy innocence and simplicity and oneness with the Father getting a chance to manifest itself in me? [1] What was true of the Virgin Mary in the historic introduction of God's Son into this earth is true in every saint. The Son of God is born into me by the direct act of God; then I as a child of God have to exercise the right of a child, the right of being always face to face with my Father.
[2] Am I continually saying with amazement to my common-sense life- why do you want to turn me off here? Don't you know that I must be about my Father's business? Whatever the circumstances may be, that Holy Innocent Eternal Child must be in contact with His Father. Am I simple enough to identify myself with my Lord in this way? Is He getting His wonderful way in me? Is God realizing that His Son is formed in me, or have I carefully put Him on one side? Oh, the clamor of these days! [3] Everyone is clamoring- for what? For the Son of God to be put to death. There is no room here for the Son of God just now, no room for quiet holy communion with the Father. Is the Son of God praying in me or am I dictating to Him? [4] Is He ministering in me as He did in the days of His flesh?
Is the Son of God in me going through His passion for His own purposes? The more one knows of the inner life of God's ripest saints, the more one sees what God's purpose is- 'filling up that which is behind of the affliction of Christ.' There is always something to be done in the sense of 'filling up.'"

[1]: God is actually manifesting Himself in the flesh the same way He did in Mary... Sorry to piss off people who think of Mary as someone lifted higher than any other human.. I just don't believe that. For me to believe that would mean that Jesus isn't being presented in the same powerful way that He was when He was born in the physical realm. If the spirit realm is more real and more present than the physical realm (which I believe completely), then Jesus being made 'flesh' via our lives as vessels means Jesus is at least just as present now as He was 2000 years ago. So I guess in that sense we are at least just as privileged as the Virgin Mary.

[2]: My mind gets me into trouble. I think logically about what God is doing, and I lose my balance. It happened just last night. I allowed my common sense to be deceived by Deceiver, and it wasn't until I allowed Jesus to speak to me via my heart- not my mind- that I realized the reality of what was going on. 'My Father's business' is crazy. It doesn't make sense. It never will unless we allow Holy Spirit to give us the Mind of Christ, which goes against all our human thoughts, ideas, convictions, motives, and especially logic. We will never be able to conjure up Jesus' thoughts as our own, so let's stop trying.

[3]: It just hit me as I read it: Just like the crowds were chanting, 'Crucify Him!' 2000 years ago, Enemy once again has the masses crying out for the death of Jesus. It's more intense now, though, because Deceiver has captured so many minds and has them chanting this phrase in a much deeper, hidden way. I'm not talking about the street corner Marilyn Manson fan flipping off church buses. I find that to be rather cute compared to the toxic, Spirit-quenching sermon to help the congregation feel comfortable with their Spirit-quenching lives, enabling their materialism and passivity. Some of these sermons I've heard make me want to expose the real message behind them: 'Crucify Him! Live your comfortable, glazed-over, Christian™ life and kill Jesus! Become so irrelevant and Spiritless to a point where you are driving people away from Him just by the way you are living. Just make sure you tithe...'

[4]: Let's ask that next time we pray... 'Jesus, are you as present and touching people through me the same way you did when you walked here in your flesh?' 

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