I Am So Hungry For You

I need you so bad. I'm longing for you so badly I feel sick to my stomach. It's really hard to find you the way I'm used to finding you right now. Sometimes these times make me question what I'm looking for... Am I looking the right way? Am I going to the right places? What about the decisions I make every day? The little things... Help me get back on that track. Some of the avenues of breakthrough seem to be closed off. This intersection is beginning to feel like a change in terrain. 'I want to waste my life to search you out.' oops. I look at things I've said to you, and it freaks me out. I've said some jacked up stuff. And I know I've meant it. But sometimes I just have a freak out session trying to comprehend the things you've had me say. I say that 'you had me say' them because there is no way I could've come up with some of that stuff on my own. 

'I want to waste my life to search you out.'

I guess this is the part where I search. I guess this is the part where I waste my life. my emotions. my love. my energy. my time. my mind. my night. on finding you.

'Find' by Philip Rice

If I fly on feathered wings of the dawn

Riding rapidly from time

If I say this darkness will be my fortress

You'll still find me there.

If I sail to the far side of the sea

Breaking every tide that keeps me

Keeps me in this state of mind

If I say this darkness will be my fortress

You'll still find me there.

Oh God find me there.

You'll still find me there.

Come find me there.

Won't you find me there.

Where can I go that your spirit is not there

Where can I hide from your presence Oh God

I cannot and I will not hide.

So come find me here.

I am here. I am here.

Find me here.

Find me.

Find me here.

Here I am, God

On the far side of the sea.

Come find me here

You will find me here.

Search me and know me, God.

Search me and know my thoughts.

Know my thoughts.

Know my anxious thoughts.

Come find me here.